MY FAMILY ツ, 7seven™
× 七姐妹
my DBT gang, freak5
DANCE, hello kitty, home o2jam*, SDO, FF7 [cloud+tifa] purple,pink,orange,white
★star, snow, rainbow, my laptop!
hates
INSECTS BEING ACCUSED!!,
greeen!
smokers ;
but my daddy is one of them --"
x . i want
see and touch snow!
part time dancer ^^
go japan!
go korea!
class GRAD trip!
DBT03`0708 reunites =(
learn piano
pretty earpiece
driving license
new mp3 - ipod
♪мelody
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daя . liиks
♫ memories in JVS~~ ♫ 16th bd present from pris ♫ hong kong pix
7seven™ ♫ the sisters. ♫ cher`lian ♫ cher`lian × ♫ huiqing × jess ♫ moni ♫ moni ×
DBT03`0708!™ ♫ the bioterrorists ♫ peek-tures ♫ xiping × mama ♫ shermin × jie ♫ jeehui × 小nu`er ♫ kelly × 大nu`er ♫ jessica × the GREAT ol' one ♫ thaddeus × teddy ♫ joanne × mojo ♫ shan ♫ bryan × ah yan ♫ marcus × ah wei ♫ chinhow × er`zi ♫ gabriel ♫ xiaoyang × WXY
looking back i guess it shows tt we were destined to shine, after the rain, to appreciate the gift of what we have and I'd go through it all over again to be able to feel this way =)
okay blog im back. first thing, MST IS OVER! last paper was anatomy and physiology II on fri glad i spent thur night to finish up the reports. and din study til i woke at 11+ on fri mornin. when tt test was at 330, cos even if i study, i noe oso wont haf much difference. haaa
and wasnt at home for fri nite. stayed overnite at lawrence's hse to play wif chicken wings. LOL. act was there to prepare food for NBE. i'm in the FOOD comm kayy. alrite. shall not go into details. haa but mi gaya teddy ahyan and clement mahjong-ed thru the nite wif ahyan's cards. yea i prefer the card's version rather than the tiles. n we all slept from 4 to 9+ i guess.
yep n today at the BBQ area. was tortured by the HOT sun. bbq-ed food for the year1s and GMs etc. tho its jux sausages n chicken wings =.= but still nice la. haha.
den went for a surprise visit at gab's hse. cos its his birthday!! [which is sunday] hahaha. kinda fun. wif all the suspense. and seeing his reaction n all. hahaha. had 1 sip of some beer? and some nice vodka+ribena lol n his room was surprisin neat. thanks to his maid. LOL
ahh. n went home takin bus wif ahma. jee, jack, wc to yishun. oh my. the bus took like more than half an hr. when its supposed to be liilke ~15 min ya n i ended up reachin home at 1 like tt.
hoho. was so tired initially. but daddy's bought some new games and stuffs. so i played until nowww. n decided to blog.. okay. im jumping to bed now. *yawns*
i learnt a lot, i realised a lot. after so much happened. yea. its not good to have too many groups of friends. 7seven, class, freak5, sdz, outside dance. charlotte says we shd be united in dance as friends too! not only for the sake of dance, even tho we are brougt tgt cos of dance. my class, we have successfully achieved that aim for last year i suppose. tho this year is a super mess.. i trusted everyone around me. until recently when somethings happened. i lost confidence in friends. sometimes i tink i shd really jux do this alone. and not trouble them. im afraid. scared. or maybe is cos i dont tok to pp unless they tok to me? im not social enough. im not automatic enough. there are times when i care, but jux dunno how to show it out. many tings i tot was right proved me wrong. i tot jux by lending her a listening ear , like wat ive did all these years, would be alrite, but it ended up my trusted friend is gone, 7seven, 6 of us is left n i hope no more. my freaks. xp,jee,kelly,sher. i dunno but cant help to tink tt im losing them too. school's become much more political u noe. n a year ago, i was telling nicole how great my dbtclass was, she was saying her dbtclass too, but until yr 2 and 3, things get more political and her class yeaa..like tt lo. so cant help but kip feeling that.. .. .. .. .. they seem so far away from mi. i wondered issit cos i complained too much to them. den they're findin mi a nuisance? sorry.. sigh haf to admit i alr set a v bad impression on them maybe. bein emo n all when tt wasnt supposed to be me from the start. my studies haf gone real down, and i guess i was too occupied with my own stuffs to care for them that much too. i owe them a lot seriously. they were the best. n the class, seperated, till now im still wondering whether my decision was right or wrong, whenever i see them, its jux so sad. WHY mux this kind of thing happen. freak.
this pic is nice. lol.
den dance, charlotte kips saying i dun try to lead. well guess im not those hu are strong enough, and i dun like it when some pp will start saying me proud or wat. cos i dun haf the authority? i prefer to jux dance in my small corner, preferring not to haf anyone notice me. and my modern dance mates ..almost got into some misunderstandings tt i wasnt aware of. if not for charlotte i think i wont be enjoyin dance anymore. to say the truth i feel that im dancing cos its my routine. not becos its my passion anymore? i dunno.. and not to mention family. been tryin hard to stay more at home. kip mummy acc more, play wif bro more.. as for dadddy, his health is not good. n the fact that he smokes always turns me off, tho he dotes on me lot. its not easy to balance my time for everyone. let alone myself. i noe i haf this big problem of time management. yes i dunno wat is going on in life. i noe i might be thinking and worrying unduly. but some things jux linger in my mind and ya. whoever managed to read this. im jux reflecting.. nvmm tml will be better. i should really really really WAKE UP. mummy always says 什么都是假的. shes quite right. i realised. i haf no one to turn to for help now. oh well retribution for being such a bad friend. everything i do is wrong. i longer believe in wat i used to do. i dunno hu i am anymore.
ahh. its always nice to haf an afternoon nap. esp when u haven been havin enough sleep for the past few days. lol. been kinda brain-occupied with dance stuffs. yep im so glad tings are goin fine~ heee. i'm missing zhenzhu =P (she told mi to write abt her for tis post)
6pm now. woohoo. so early ^^ guess ill play some games b4 goin off to do reports den study. or i shld study first den do reports? duno lol.
alrite everyone. happy studying~ as long as everyone is happy
i'm not gonna complain how little time im left wif. cause i noe everyone's feeling the same. experiencin the same i guess.
i wan to study for mst. but reports not done. n tt's hinderin my study time.
wan to do reports. BUT I DUNNO HOW TO DO.! call mi stupid or watever. but ya. i jux dun understand it. stared at it for hours alr.. retribution for not payin attention. n im quite afraid to ask for help. freakinnnn. dun even reali noe whens the deadline for the reports. onli noe is tis week. ahh which day?
n tt gems assignment needed to be handed in tml. DUNNO HOW TO DO TOO. i dunno whr my brains had gone to.
troubles doesnt seem to end isnt it. ytd i had tt door of troubles closed but today, a new door of troubles opened. freaking.
Decisions are not always made by choice, but by what is for the best. don't ever think what will happen tmr, cos today has enough troubles on its own
tt maameemoo always haf a way. haaa ty nooob mama. "Some people put up a wall, not to isolate themselves, but to see who has the heart to tear those walls down." u said we dun confide in u when we haf problems.. perhaps u din managed to tear those walls of ours down. cos i realised, she did, and u din.. onli started 2 report's procedures the rest all untouched. hmmm.. my mind is totally not on studies. perhaps tts y im not feelin the stress now. hahahahahhahahahahaha.
jux wanna lie on my comfy bed. and idle my time awayy
haa. seriously i dunno what's up wif today. 3 things tt were supposed to be troublin mi are like nth to mi now~~
early mornin i had xp msgin mi sayin class blog is back. i tot i was dreamin u noe! im so super ELATED. changed the url immediately for fear of blog bein removed again. n yea it does brgs back lots of memories >.< nvm the blog's back n its all tt matters =) i kinda feel tt my dead soul was awaken like tt HAHA. SO HAPPPPIEEEEEEEEE~~
after tt met up wif my dear sisters. its always pastamania, den coffeebean. our style okayy. heeee. so happy. its great to each other again =) everyone's so busy laaaa. lol
went for modern dance meetin. decision made after serious consideration. gonna be some major change in the modern side. hmmmm. but ya. tts kind of a load off my mind now.
oh yea. shootin's finally over todayy. i feel like i had gone to work loll. cos i was paid for the filminnnn. cool. and i was shocked to haf received that amt of $$ no wonder actresses and actors are so rich. hahaa.
time for STUDIES. yea i guess wont be tt busy le ba ^^ i better spend more time wif family.
sigh. i tink tis BUSY word kills people. stresses people. affects relationships wif friends. most imptly, wif family. zzz. been neglectin them a lot. stupid bro always comes to mi but i always shoo him off wif a scream.. daddy's health is gettin worse.. some time ago, mummy even went to the extent of ignorin me. sayin tt i treat the hse like a hotel. come back jux to sleep.. how SAD can tt be..
i dun even haf time for family la. let alone friends. shitty. o yea fine busy isnt an excuse
lalala. home's got new sofas. hehe. wanna see.? den visit mi somedayy.
modern dance todayy. waiyee was late. but her class today was WOW. plus we all haven had dinner. pearl, char, mi were like "oww hungry" all dance until @.@ had a meetin or chat or watever wif waiyee n the modern pp. hmm i hope everything goes well.
well started on 2 reports alr. freakin. jux realised theres GEMs assignment too. so total, 3 reports, 2 datasheets, 1 assignment. n that 6 modules for mst. ZZZ!
im startin to tink its a lil unwise for cls to haf mst. i heard from pearl that she onli haf 3 modules for mst!! n we haf 6! ahh so GOOD! oh for ur info. she's in business admin. lol
time is definitely not enough. shooting for moni's film tml again~ i hope it will be done tml.. so ill haf remainin days to study!!
maybe cause i've been home these few days. got the time to think thru some things.
take me to far away way to your secret place take my tears my fears take all my pain away
hmmm. i miss that class a lot. i'm glad we took lots of pictures. at least something .. but it still hurts to think how we ended up like this.
fate brought us together, but it is also cruel to haf us separated jux like tt wifout any warnin.
i miss those days when i always look forward to sch wif a smile, no matter how tired or how much stress i was undergoin tt timee i had my most unglam times wif u all. but i also had my happiest times wif u all as well.
i want that class blog back badly.. why mux it be removed. again wifout warnin. it feels like heaven is keen on sepearatin us like tt. even if i were to create a new class blog, there's no meanin in it cos its not the same anymore.. the daily posts, be it happy or sad. ALL GONE.
sorry. lol. it jux happened cos i saw marc's blog wif those pics. n i happened to be listenin to songs we used in class blog b4. lolll.
* doctor, actor, lawyer or a singer why not president, be a dreamer you can be just the one you wanna be police man, fire fighter or a post man why not something like your old man you can be just the one you wanna be doctor, actor, lawyer or a singer why not president, be a dreamer you can be just the one you wanna be
i know that we all got one thing that we all share together we got that one nice dream we live for you never know what life could bring coz nothing last for ever just hold on to the team you play for
we may have different ways to think but it doesn"t really matter we all caught up in the steam of this life focus on every little thing that"s what does really matter luxury cars and bling thats not real life
i know you could reach the top make sure that you won"t stop be the one that you wanna be now sing this with me
mood's better these few days. been helpin moni in her filmin. and due to some prob in loanin of the cams etc. shootin is postponed to next wk..
so here im at home the whole day. HAPPY! but tt means my nxt wk is full again =(
sigh i better start doin tt 3 reports n 2 datasheets. molbio report is damn hard la. xp went mad doin it LOL. tink i'll cry doin it. cos din reali even pay attention in class. so.. i'm dead for MST too.
first wk: mon-thur was jux dance n dance. for tt open hse performance. fri was NEWater outin for report.. sat was NBE games trial.. tml's TBG concert..
*poof* 1 week gone
2nd n 3rd weeks? moni's filminn..8-9 days gone dance practices..2-3 days gone im like left wif no free days for studies. alr cuttin down on dance. but WHY.. zzz
ohh my. n the 4th week's gonna be MST! freaking.!
i jux feel tt im so stupid to make myself busy. more study days pleaaaase. impossible i noe.
see and touch snow!
class GRAD trip!
July 2004
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